I confess to writing a couple times and deciding not to post because of the people who read this stuff. I guess that knowing who some of you are has me editing myself maybe more than I would have intended. Not to worry. I resolved not to care what you think about me and post whatever the hell I feel like. Who are you to judge me?
I am taking a lot onto my plate lately. I work a full time job 5 nights a week that, for the most part, I loathe. I have music practice once or twice a week, I attend 2 House Churches, one I will be leading, one I co-lead. I am also a House Church Pastor Coach, which means I keep in touch with a group of Pastors regularly. I am on the Design Team for organizing and planning Sunday Gatherings, I usually set up and tear down at Services, I am involved in a few intentional mentor/mentee relationships, I am an Editor/Administrator for our monthly Journal, and I have been volunteering down at our garden project a couple times a week.
I try to manage all this with prayer time, reading the Bible as well as any devotional or educational literature that I am supposed to be reading at the moment, and keeping a quasi-regular schedule at the gym while also trying not to eat junk : )
In reality, some of these things get dropped, ignored, forgotten about completely. I don’t have a schedule I stick to, no long term goals at the moment, and I am under the mistaken impression that things will somehow get better. I am drowning in life and blindly hoping for a miracle. How can someone who sucks at faith have such high hopes? Does that even make sense? How is hope different than faith?
I guess its action. Hope doesn’t require anything from me. Faith demands that I take action. I don’t possess the power to accomplish anything great on my own, and I know that. I have experienced great things through the help of God, and I know when it comes down to it, He will do the hard stuff. I have seen it in my own life, so why is it so hard to have faith? He says, “Ask and it shall be given freely…”
Pray for faith for me brothers and sisters. Pray for wisdom. I need all the help I can get, TTFN. Check ya later
